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hmmmmm .. last day of july ler ..

ytd nite recieve you wei msg .. saying he wish to mit miie n jin on mon .. haiish .. shuld i or shuld i nt go ??? i mishh him alot .. bt i scared i c him .. i cnt forget him more .. haiish ..

yeahhhss .. i change muaii blog song liao .. tish song so nice .. tiish ish wat i m feeling now .. haiish .. who cn ease the pain in me ???? i feel so pain n confuse .. haiish .. i wish to say patch ..

bt i scared he reject cos i noe he dunchh love me at all .. haiish .. wat shuld i duhh??? haiish ..

today exam .. OFA .. omg!!!!! instantly chui ar .. i dunnch noe how to do pivot table n the chart .. arggghhsss ... thur .. wpb!!!!!!! omg!!!!! stressed up .. the project still not done yet .. dunchh even noe how to start lor .. haiish ..

well .. reachh semb mrt .. i saw mrs liow.. muaii last yr form tcher ..mishh her so muchh .. hahahah.. she still rmb me lor .. chat with her for a while .. really mishh her n bishan ite aloot ar .. miss muaii last yr classmates .. how i wishh cn habb a gathering .. haiish ..

welll .. wat shuld i do??? anyone ??? help me .. i misshh you wei ..

NN yOu aRe MyEe PriNcE

update muaii blog liao ..

dunchh noe how long nvr update muaii blogg .. haiish .. today morniing .. we brk up ler .. haiish .. in front of wei jin he say brk ler .. he cnt make himself turhh love me .. he cnt !!!!! on the spot i say i noe .. cos he really show that one his face .. haiish .. feeling super sad now .. haiish .. in front of him i didnt cry much .. bt when i hug wei jin .. i cried liao .. haiish .. really cried ..

went turhh his house to take muaii ting .. then i gave him the last hug .. after i left .. i cried .. really dunch bare at all .. he forever dunch wan gib me tym turhh change or turhh proof .. he say he will get use of muaii life .. ish tish a lie or truth???? did he really tried??? he cnt accpet me as his ger .. bt yet he say he love me ... again ish tish a lie or truth ???? i feel so confuse .. haiish ..

i nvr slip at all after i went home .. lie on muaii bed .. tinking abt the past .. worried abt him .. haiish .. after awhile muaii mama drag me out of the house .. she bring me go eat breakfast .. on the way there i cried again .. haiish .. wat the hell happen to me??? i jus wish tat he can open his eyes n realised tat i m around .. i jus wish tat he cn open his hart n accept me .. haiish .. i m getting very tired ..

i changed ler mar????? or i remain the same???? how i wish i cn sometimes slow dwn muaii step .. to really see tiish world .. bt .. haiish .. brk dwn .. totally brk dwn ..

NN yOu aRe MyEe PriNcE

update muaii blogg liao .. ^.^

haiish .. stressful .. haiish .. tmr bfd exams liao .. shit larrr .. haiish .. study until headach .. dunchh noe whether cn the notes all go into muaii head or not .. haiish ..

PROJECTSSS!!!!!! argggghhhs .. ofa done .. bt wpb .. haiish .. gt turhh really rushh out liao .. haiish .. if not its impossible for me turhh rush everything out in short tym .. haiish .. shagg~ help me arrr ... instant chui~ haiish .. anyone cn help me ar .. i reaslly dunchh noe how turhh do lor .. haiish .. suchh a stressful wk ..

hmmmmmm .. now i dunchh noe wat shuld i do .. haiish .. goiing crazy liao .. me patch with wei ler .. nvr let jin noe anything .. cos i scared she sad again .. cos now i noe she still hab feeling for him .. she still mish him .. if i tell her .. she gona sad again .. n he will worried abt her again .. then the same old thing will happen again .. haiish .. noww he treat her so fierce .. haiish .. lyk until he n her cnt even be frwens lyk tish .. haiish .. wat shuld i do lehh .. me now oso lost control liao .. i kip on telling jin abt wat happen to wei .. n ask her to msg him to show concern .. haiish .. wat am i doiing wor ????? gone crazy ??? or wat ???? haiish .. i love wei .. bt i kip doiing tishh .. ish equalls to i hurting muaiiself .. bt it seems lyk tish pain oready numb to me liao .. haiish ... muaii hart dunchh feel the paiin .. muaii hart bleeds .. the soreness still there .. haiish .. cn i cry out everything???? bt muaii tears jus dunch drop .. wat actuallly happpen???? i guess i really gone crazy ler ..

haiish cn i quit skooling ????? its so hard n difficult .. i wan carol ... haiish .. i wan her to acc me go skool .. haiish .. i mishh ioa ppl .. haiish .. tat class ish the most wonderful class i ever habb .. haiish .. no one ish selfish .. no one will shoot each other out .. no one will dislyk each other .. even if really dislyk .. they oso won hurt each other .. haiish ..

i better go bck study liao .. haiish .. habbing stomach ach .. arggghhhhh ..

NN yOu aRe MyEe PriNcE

update muai blog liao

hmmmmm .. today feel guilty towards all muaii frwens .. i soooooooo muchh more emo today .. cos of the brk ups ..
well .. now de feeling so confuse .. happy n sad all mixed up .. haiish .. he n her gt tok ler .. bt he n me dunch tok ler .. haiish .. wat the hell .. i dunchh deserve tish type of treatment baiish ???? do it ??? haiish .. i dunnchh noe .. i m not angry .. jus tat i dunchh noe wat happen turhh him nia .. he nit not feel guilty towards sme der .. i m okayy . i m orite .. frm the satrt i noe he cnt forget her .. so i nvr blame him anything .. love him is i willingly .. y he must feel bad ???? haiish ..

i wan turhh be his frwen lar .. i dunch wan he avoid me lar .. haiish .. help me ar .. i nit tym turhh forget everything .. bt he lyk tish treat me i dunchh noe how turhh forget ar .. haish .. ** tired **

i nvr slip well ytd .. or rather i totally nvr slip lor . haiish . first tym .. tat tym joel i oso nvr lyk tish lor .. haiish .. tish tym round i lyk tish .. ** stressed up **

exams is comiign ler .. projects deaadlines are comiing too .. wpb i totally happen start . i so stressed up .. haiish the tym i nit him most .. he left me .. haiish .. i really tat no gd mar ?? i jus dunchh play game nia .. doesntt mean i no good baiish .. haiish .. stress liao .. wat to do ?????

i msshh the days with him .. i mishh every saturday .. n sunday morning i acc him .. haiish .. i mishh him .. i mishh his smile .. i misshh his voice .. i mishh his everything .. haiish ... the memories ish killing me ..

NN yOu aRe MyEe PriNcE

Everything finish liao ..

he finally told me everything .. he say he feel lyk letting her dwn to be with me .. n he say we character don match .. everything he say out ler ..

1 wk 3 days .. jus lyk tishs end ler .. what the hell .. y tiish happen in me ????? y???? y muaii happiness start n end so fast ?????? y itsh me again ???? joel lyk tish .. he oso lyk tish .. kill me better .. i wan choose to hold on .. bt hee choose to let go .. y lyk tiish ??????? forever its hurting ... forever i m being hurt ..

well .. jus recieve his msg .. he was being hurt by jin too ler .. so deep untill he himself say tat he ish a dead man .. den me lehh ???? haiish .. tink properly we are in the same boat .. my feeling ish rite .. he rather being love then try to love someone again .. he gave me the best answer .. =) tat make me rather die then facing the fact .. haiish .. hurting .. feel lyk crying .. really .. haish .. brk dwn again ..

NN yOu aRe MyEe PriNcE

hmmmm .. update blog again liao ..

haiish .. saturday tym pass so fast .. siian .. so ast now 2.21 am liao .. haiyo .. if muaii everyday can pass so fast how gd wor .. hmmmm .. siian .. now at hubbiie hse .. doiing nothh .. watch tv n acc him .. although nvr really acc alot lar .. he mapliing den me wtch tv .. if not emo-ing .. hahah .. lammiie lor .. hahahah .. welll .. at least i c get to see him liao .. so happy ..

haiish .. as for benny they all .. i really duno how to help lehhh .. if continues lyk tishh .. i guess no point i continue to help them liao .. haiish .. funny lor .. haiish .. welll .. wat to do lehh .. jy n alpha so patient .. =) haiish .. haiish .. haiish .. wat sshuld i do lehh ...tell me baiish .. cn decide wat to do ..

hmmmmm .. siian lehh .. muaii projects~ argghhhhsss ... wat the fcuk .. stresss !!!!!!! kill me baiish .. haiish ...

NN yOu aRe MyEe PriNcE

update blog in skool ..

hmmmm .. haiishh .. i tink i created tiish a bigg problem ler .. haiish .. super damn guilty .. haiish .. cos ish lyk i m not good in tokiing den ish lyk me led turhh everyting .. haiish .. today .. forget turhh bringg powerpoint cd for benny liao .. fcukk siia .. haiish .. damnn it .. i damn stress .. haiish .. feel lyk bangiing the wall llor .. haiish .. first tym i m lyk tishh lor .. haiish .. i created tiish chaoss lor .. wat the fcuk lor .. i really feel bad lor .. haiishhh ..

hmmmm ... ytd went out with ah kor to amk k box .. until 10 plus jiu go home liao .. cos ah kor scared wei angry .. haha .. kor kor super funny lor .. hahaha .. hmmmm .. actually iish the both of us not happy de .. den after tat ii okay liao .. cos i tok everything out to kor .. and den after tat he told me his ting tat dunchh shocked me at all .. he got a super weird feeling for wei jin .. bt he n ruyee .. haiish .. dono lar .. heard frm kor tat .. ruyee start to dislyk me liao .. haiish .. cos of wei jin ting .. haiish .. i oready super guilty liao .. haiish .. wei jin the ting i m still tinking wat to do .. shuld i let go of relationship or wat ??? bt i don bare to let go anything .. haiish .. i wan frwenship i oso wan relatiopnship .. haiish .. y wor . y lyk tiish .. haiish .. ruyee will not be goiing to forgive me ler .. cos i hurt wei jin feeling .. haiish .. wat shuld i do ?????

haiish .. tiish week must chiong out muaii poject ask must study for examss .. kinda stress lor .. haiish .. y cnt i stress free ???? hmmmmm .. i reallly find muaiiself super irritating haiish .. wat shuld i do ???? muaii head so paiinn .. haiish .. physically n mentally tired .. y must i lyk tiish .. haiish .. if i cn stay out of everythiing i oso wan .. haiish .. siian .. really siian .. tired~ n stress up . totally brk dwn liao ..

NN yOu aRe MyEe PriNcE

update muaii blogg againn liao ..

hmmmmm .. siian .. triedd turhh duhh some of the question from da wpb .. hmmmm .. well managed turhh do lar .. haha .. yet .. i still stress .. cos exams comiing now ler .. stress untill wan die liao .. haiish .. haii ..

carol mama gib birth liao .. gibb birth to a baby boii .. hahah .. i nvr get turh c him .. bt nvrm .. as long as both okay cn liao .. so happy .. bt carol cry .. she very sad .. she hartbroken cos she see baby not coming out by natural way .. lucky i m nt there .. if nt i will sure sad ooso der ..

hmmmmm .. well .. haiish .. i dunch noe lehh .. haiish .. so stress up sia .. haiish .. no tym for playing liao .. haha .. siians .. tired~

NN yOu aRe MyEe PriNcE

update blog liao ..

hmmmmm .. today got tings happen liao .. haiish .. in skool .. benny n xuelin .. habb misunderstading liao .. hmmmm .. dunchh noe wat turhh do lehh .. abit feel helpless .. haiish .. jus nw jingye say i change ler .. change too more happy ler .. so happy turhh hear him say tat .. =)

hmmmm .. today hubbie suddenly sms me .. "dear.. me just wake up.. ya now in skool ma? sitting here stone suddenly think of you and your cold jokes.. so miss you oh.." u noe wat?? i was so happy to see this msg lor .. although i not sure hab he 100% forget about the past bt jus feel happy .. nxt he msg me one ting "haha stead with you i really forget abt my past le.. now only you nia..muacks" see tish one although i may still tink alot here n there .. bt i still happy lor .. at least muaii afford iis not being wasted .. hopefully we do cn last long.. well .. he in camp .. i in skool study .. bt the tym he ord i oso graduate liao .. =) hopefully cn pass tish 2 yrs peacfully .. haiish .. one tym of seeing devil ish enuff liao .. no nit the second tym .. cos i scared liao ..

haisih .. dunch noe wat he doing now .. i tink habiing pt baish .. he gone missing for an hour plus liao .. waiting for his sms wor .. haiish .. miss him alot .. haish .. me n jin oso nvr contact much liao .. haiish .. cos of one guy we draw a distance.. i oso don wan say much .. or rather .. i dunch wan to disturb her liao .. she hab suffered enuff .. i dunch noe tat i silently hurt someone so badly tat make muaiiself super guilty .. haiish .. headach~

examss are coming nearer n nearer liao .. i still haben study .. wat turhh do wor .. haish .. headach~ stress up ar .. chionging muaii project .. chionging muaii study .. nit to squeezed out muaii sat n sunday for muaii hubbiie . soo i better make good use of muaii monday to friday to study liao .. haiish ... lucky i study .. cos study will be bz .. not lyk working slack .. or stress untill wan die .. in skool still cn hab fun .. although skool quite far .. bt still muaii frwens are still there for me .. =) 2 yrs .. lyk so long .. haiish .. cn the tym go faster ??? haiish .. kind of getting bored with the tym goiing so slow .. haisih .. donchh noe lar .. i go muaii room smoking liao.. haha .. siian ..

NN yOu aRe MyEe PriNcE

hmmmmm ... in skool .. monday afternoon ..

haiish .. suddenly recieved one shocking msg from youwei saying tat ruyee msg him telling him tat weijin cried becos we are together .. haiish .. starting if i noe jin stilll ove him de hua i shuld not stead liao .. haiish .. y lyk tish wor .. y cnt she tell me the truth from the start???? haiish .. headach~ i instantly lost when i say the msg .. instantly chui~ i do muaii work half way .. i lost .. i donch noe wat to continue to do .. haiish ..

i do care abt how jin feel .. bt .. haish .. end up .. lyk tish .. kinda blur diao .. y she wan turh hide tish ting from me .. i dunch wan turh be a bad person .. haiish .. hmmmmmm .. any idea?????
i let them settle their ting buaii themselves .. bt i think jin ish avoiding wei .. i dunchh wan turhh involve in anything .. so at one point .. i suddenly change muaii view .. tot of helping them .. of cos i m sad la .. haiish .. bt well maybe is muaii fault oso baiish .. i shulden contact wei from the begining der.. haiish .. kinda stress up now ..

although he say he n her ish impossible der .. but i do still feel bad for tat lar .. haiish .. well .. dunch noe how ish jin liao .. sms her no reply .. haiishhh .. wat turhh do ar ??????? blurrr .. haiish ..

she love him shuldedn brk der .. bt end up still lyk tiish .. brk becos of her ex . den now she cried becos he found a gerfriend .. haiish .. wat shuld i do ????? hmmmmmm ... haiish .

NN yOu aRe MyEe PriNcE

update blog liao ..

hmmmm .. dunchh seem very long i nvr update muaii blog .. by muaii tag was being flood .. =s
well .. make decision tat i dunch noe how turhh make lehh .. bt anyway .. verona is the first person turhh make me see the whole picture .. she makes me really really go tink real hard ..
well .. i will stick wan turhh be the happy go lucky me .. as for attitude i will change der .. thanks turhh weijin n corliss .. they make me feel comfortable .. they told me one ting .. be urself .. n if really don works then tok ting out .. =) hmmmm .. actually they do say alot more thene tish two sentence .. bt .. overall ishh .. be muaiiself .. so decided turhh change muaii attitude jiu hao ..

hmmmm .. nvr go turhh skool on friday .. miss alot of lesson liao .. haiish .. although ish jus only half day .. hmmmmm .. catching up tymm .. no slacking liao .. hmmmmm .. study hard hard .. on wkdays .. den cn pei hubbiie on wkends .. =)

well .. muaii dayss .. at least get turhh hab happy tyms .. with either jin or hubbie .. i will get turhh forget abt the saddnes in skool .. well .. be with them so nice .. hopefully muaii attitude do change la .. if not really got no frwen i dunch noe how turh survive through liao .. jia you~

NN yOu aRe MyEe PriNcE

hmmmm .. update blog ler ..

haiish .. i cnt slp larr .. dunch noe wat happen oso .. haiish .. ytd i really very happy .. cos i m crazily habbing fun with all my frwens .. well .. i nvr go skool ytd .. haiish .. cn say ish pon skool baiish .. i consider very long .. should i change or not .. i tok to jin abt it .. although she say it may not be worth it cos as a frwen shuld not request for too much .. well .. i cn be super playful sometym .. bt once i change .. it will be another me ler .. i won 100% be gentle bt i only be at least 50-60% gentle nia .. i cnt make muaiiself change turh be lyk xl jass or verona .. cos that ish not me .. i m not born turhh be gentle .. muaii character is lyk tish ..

alpha say .. my frewn jian jiu me alot ler .. bt seems lyk i nvr jian jiu them .. haiish .. did i not jian jiu them???? i really wondering .. he say alot of tings tat i nvr do .. bt since he say . then okay lor . no idea i did or not .. jus admit lor .. if i say no .. he will still insist i did .. don wan argue over tish ting .. then jus admit lor .. haiish .. y cnt i be carefree????? still wondering shuld i change to their expectation or not .. ya .. i may cn do a very big change in muaiiself .. bt is the problem of i wan or dunch wan .. n oso the problem of is it worth it turhh change turhh lyk tish ???? haiish .. headach~

Even carol they all oso won say me till lyk tish .. when i m sad yes they acc me .. they make me laugh .. i very thankful for their hard work .. bt asking me turhh change another character another me .. shuld i or shulden i ?? i very confuse .. i jus lyk myself tish happy go lucky way .. i dunch hab a choice do i ???? at first tot i hate them all for asking to change when i dunch feel lyk too .. bt second tot i don wan to be alone in skool .. haiish .. i very confuse arrrr .... haiish .. habb turrhh go skool today ler .. wat shuld i do?????? haiish ..

haiya .. i dunch noe lar .. i don wan turhh care can??? i let the nature takes it place .. i cnt forget joel .. i m still hurt yet they still expect me turhh be another person .. i dun lyk .. haiish .. gentle ????? wat the hell .. kill me lar .. when i m not in the fault .. i dun tink i shuld i admit .. bt end up i admit .. kao .. haisih .. i dunch noe lar .. i dono!!!!!!! i m confuse !!!! truely frwens de hua shuld accept the way i m .. bt ish nt i accept their way of thinking .. haiish .. confuse confuse confuse .. i m selfish .. i only care for myself .. den okay lor .. if i really care for myself .. i won even wan to bother their tinking .. i cn smoke in front of them der .. i don jian jiu anyone .. haiish .. wat world is tish .. change for frwen .. once again worth it or nnot ????

NN yOu aRe MyEe PriNcE

hmmmmm... now in skool .. habiing bfd lesson .. yeahhh~ exam postpon again liao .. nvr study lor .. haiish .. dunchh noe wat turhh do lehhh .. hmmmmm .. now everyone iish bz with the role play .. bt me happily blogging, smsing, slacking at one corner ..

hmmmmm ... muaii days so sian .. haiish .. realised one ting ? i nvr write the days i m emo-ing ler .. not becos i m not emo-ing ler .. bt ish .. i dunchh wishh turhh write turhh much ler .. haiish .. i m getting more n more silent n emo each day pass buaii .. haiish .. me becoming more n more attitude ler .. haiish .. dunchh noe lar .. i dunch noe y i hate her being so xing fu .. bt .. haiish .. well i admit she ish more xing fu den me .. den dunch wan turhh say much lor .. haiish ..

love one person so hard .. hate one person so easy .. hmmmmm .. i really dunch noe wat turhh do .. i m so confuse .. i hate tishh mix feeling in muaii hart .. haiish .. killing me each day ..

NN yOu aRe MyEe PriNcE

emo day 9 ler ..

ytd .. mit him .. lun n x.h .. haiish .. he n x.h super loving .. n i m lyk total transparent .. haiish .. although say ish say won uneasy .. bt still i m uneasy la .. wat ever loving they do .. i turn away .. dunchh wan turhh c ler .. den lata hurt ..
haiish .. gib up ler .. shuld totally forget n let go ler .. =)

hao baiish .. tmr skool reopen ler .. =) LOVEY LOVEY ~ bt exam start liao .. haiish .. stress .. habenn study sia .. argggssshh~ die liao lar ... ohh .. ya .. uploaded some pictures in muaii blogg ... =) now muaii blogg nicer ler .. nt tat siann liao .. = haiiish .. tiredd .. tmr start skool at 10 .. hmmmmm .. must study hard again liao .. strive for the future~ n yahhh ... wanna go work ler lar .. cos no money spend liao .. =) jia you turhh me ..

ok lar .. gt nth much turhh blog todayyy ...

NN yOu aRe MyEe PriNcE

EMO DAY 8

hmmmm .. brk up 8 days ler .. haiish .. when cn i let go n forget??? shoooo tired when our happy memories owaes sudden appear iin muai mind n dreams??? when cn i make myself strong???? everytym lyk tish .. its killing miie lor ..

haiish .. everything seems turhh be so different .. haiish ..

ytd went sentosa with benny, ah gong, jing ye, rui xian n xueling .. go there celebrate xueling bday .. =) everyone iish habiing fun .. well .. i actually dunch wan tann der .. bt jus stand under the sun a few minutes only .. i become tann .. now habbing sun burn .. OUCH~ so pain .. muaii hand, leg n bck .. all sun burn .. so red .. bt we at sentosa only awhile .. go in for 2 hours nia .. haiish .. sian ..

at nite actually shuld go xueling bday "party" de.. bt end up i nvr go .. i went turhh mit wei jing .. den hang untill 10 plus .. me go home bath ler den mit guo wei .. haha .. haiish .. siian .. dunchh noe what turhh blog lar .. bt stil wan turhh blog ..

turhh VERONA ..

thanks gurl .. i m trying turhh be strong ler .. i m trying very hard .. haiish .. bt i will mishh him for no reason .. lyk i say tish dream iish turhh beautiful ler .. wan turhh get over it oso hard .. haiish .. bt i really wan tturhh thanks ieuu all for treating me so gd .. =) thanks for cheering me up when i m super down .. really thanks ..

NN yOu aRe MyEe PriNcE

EMO DAY 6

Yohh ~ update blog liao ^.^

haiish .. whole morniing sho0 siians .. haiish ..

ytd whole nite cnt slip ..

cos muaii sis orh orh on muaii bed ..

den aiie cnt orh orh on muaii bed @.@

but iin the end aiie share muaii bed with her ..

hahahahaha ..

Squeezing ~ end up orh orh one one small portion ..

Haiish .. SADED ~ bt after she left furr skool .

i occupy the whole bed !!! whahahahaha ..

abit silly n crazy turhh post tiish type of tingy ..

Ohh yahh .. i shooo proud of muaiiself ..

Muaaii frwenster ~ hahahahaha ..

Not the skin .. bt the mainn tingss i did it muaiiself ..

although i did tat owaes .. bt tishh tym round ..

i ssuper satisfied .. hahahaha ..

haiiyaahh .. bckk too the lamiie.com meee ..

Well .. haiishhh .. i cnt donchh bee lamiie ..

coss .. i goiing crazy ler .. #.#

bt anywayy .. i juss tryiing turhh act strong ..

tats all ..

NN yOu aRe MyEe PriNcE

E M O D A Y 5

5 th day ler .. n accidentally saw he n her foto at both of their frwenster .. haiish .. how i wish i nvr c anything .. super regret sia .. haiish .. no tears to drop ler .. only noe i super hart pain .. the pain ish worst then he broke up with me .. haiish .. haiish .. everything ended liao .. muaii memoriess should throw away liao .. must be bck muaiiself again liao .. who am i ? haiish .. now i oso donch noe .. LOST n CONFUSE ..

well i m glad tat i hab alot of good frwens around me .. they sheer me up in many ways .. n everytym i say i mish him they will show me helpless face n then will comfort me .. haiish .. LOVE U GUYS .. LOVE LOVE ~

well .. everything hab to come to a end now .. since he ended it first .. den ok lor .. end lor .. haiish ..
how i wish now i hab a bf .. well .. i will still mish joel if i hab a bf now .. bt .. at least someone will be confirm there when i nit him .. haiish .. saded~ emptiness tat he cnt feel .. sadness tat he donch noe .. haish .. so selfish .. haiish .. he only bother abt he happy n forget abt me .. haiish .. i donch wan tish to happen de .. bt i cnt sstop everything .. ARGGHHH .. KILL ME ~

NN yOu aRe MyEe PriNcE

E M O D A Y 4 . .

haiish .. he n her .. goiing turhh be together ler baiish .. haiish .. in muaii mind notiing really matters alot .. bt he n her .. it bothers me alot .. acting turhh be his frwen ish the most tiring tiing i ever duhh .. haiish .. brk up for 4 days ler .. he today auto msg me .. bt iish notiing good .. y? cos xinhui gib him de testie all lost ler .. he TOT iish me .. haiish .. nw i noe he kaiire alot for her untill cn "accuse" me for deleting the testie .. haiish .. i did notiing .. i m not as bo liao as EDDIE lor .. haiish .. i duhh hurt alot when he ask tiish .. i actually donch wan to explain anything .. bt really iish not muaii fault .. so i did explain .. haiish ..

after awhile .. i msg him again .. n ask him de he find his baobei testie .. bt he nvr find .. den he say he trust me will not be so bo liao .. haiish .. when he say tish .. muaii tears feell yk dropping xia .. haiish .. if he trust me he won even will "accuse" me for the lost of his baobei testie ler .. haiish .. iif one daymuaii testie no longer in his frwenster will he oso "accuse" someone for duhiing tat? or rather will he even bother turhh treat me as the same as how he treat xinhui after brk up? no rite?? so no point ler .. haiish ..

start to accept the fact tat he ish not mine ler .. bt still will tink of him n will worried abt him .. donch noe y oso .. feeling haben fade baiish .. azriel told me he stil mish me bt his hart only hab xinhui .. haiish .. so wat he mish me .. yes .. i m happy tat he at least will mish me .. bt his hart don belongs to me .. tats all .. let go .. n destroy muaiiself .. is my only way .. lyk from the beginning i got no way bt to agree to brk ar .. haiish .. i m another tai ti ping mar ??? or he really did truely love me be4 .. tiish ish still a question in muaii hart .. tat haben been unlocked ..

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3rd day ler ..

my days passed jus lyk tish .. everytym i auto sms him .. for no reason .. n nth for us to chat abt .. i ask he ans .. i ask he ans only .. totally lyk stranger den a frwen .. haiish .. nth much to say .. nth much to tok abt .. haiish .. well .. today he or rather azrial said he will mit me .. bt i guess .. he won turn up ler baiish .. he sure will hab someting on .. n i will be forgotten .. i oready being forgotten ler .. he suffer not becos of me oso .. he suffer becos of xinhui .. i m jus a passerby to him .. the passerby which aboard the train gave him a few days happiness .. n i alight ler .. now left him alone to face the fact .. i cnt be wif him ler ..

verona(laopo), jingye(pro) n junkok(ah gong), weijin(ah kim) n ming xuan(monkey .. THANKS alot to u guys .. to cheer me up .. n believe tat i cn get strong .. realy thanks to u all .. without u all .. i guess my smile won be around liao .. n thanks to my sis .. she ish owaes around n listen to me say i mish him .. although she abit no patient to haer me say tat bt she still listen .. she did nth much bt jus gib me a face bt i m happy ler .. no longer going to sms him ler .. i noe by waiting his sms won work .. bt i oso don wan to delete his no .. i jus leave it n hope tat he will one day sms me asking me for patch .. i m still waiting for tat day to come .. is jus being an idiot .. to do tat .. bt i jus wan to do .. haiish .. nth much to say ..

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SUNDAY = 2nd day without him ..

i mishh him .. really mish him .. i dono y .. i m tired .. bt i cnt slip well .. or rather i cnt slip at all ..

ytd wei jin n ming xuan .. acc me .. n cheer me up .. ming xuan wanted to prove to me tat nt only joel cn make me happy they oso can .. so he went to a fruit stall n stole a ha mee gua although to u guys ish not funny n noting to funny abit .. bt to me i ssaw the whole situation .. n i laugh ler .. i dono y .. well .. i told him .. everyone cn make me happy ar .. jus tat the smile ish different .. he comfort me so long .. yet i still cnt forget everything .. dono wat to do oso .. weijin acc me the whole day .. tish ish the 2nd tym she mit me .. n so coincident tat the 1st n 2nd tym she mit me i oso hab cuts on my hand .. plus same hand somemore .. we play 6 stage of ddr at p.s then went over to cineleisuer the arcade played 10 rounds of ddr .. n the both of us perspire lyk crazy .. after tat we sit dwn outside on the floor n stone .. she tink her tings n i tink mine .. i told her i feel lyk i m a idiot .. i kip on sms those irritating msg to him .. i dono y .. i one day don msg him lyk will die .. everytym msg tone ring .. i will be excited .. n wish will be him .. everytym my fone ring .. i will oso wish tat ish him .. bt totally not .. i told weijin .. how i wish he will auto msg n call me even when we are frwen .. y? y? y tat person he will auto msg or call ish xinhui? the person feeling sad in his eyes ish not me ma?

i dono y he find it so worth it .. dono y i m nobody in his eyes .. a toally nobody .. he don mish me ler .. i m no longer a burden to him ler .. he nit not feel guilty ler .. he ish being set free ler .. so do i .. i nit not wry or tink too much .. xinhui ar xinhui .. u so xing fu .. u hab eddie as ur stead .. n u still hab joel tish gardian angel who ish owaes protecting u .. treasure wat u hab .. if really u n joel get bck tgt .. rmb don leave him for another guy ler .. now my situation cn use tish song in my blog to describe me ..

i m not okay .. i m super sad .. i m super crazy .. i dono wat to do .. totally lost in no where .. i wan hug .. i wan shoulder .. i wan to cry everything out .. i don wan to kip ler .. so painful .. KILL MIIE BAIISH !!!! anyone .. jus kill me .. my heart ish much more painful then e cut on my hand .. i kip on asking myself tish question .. am i being played out ? or jus we are not suitable for each other ? bt i cnt get my ans .. every day tink of tish question .. out of sudden all the memories come bck .. frm the first day to 2906 .. haiish .. his smile .. his face .. his cute reaction .. his voice .. everything .. i will tink of .. lucky he left behind the happy memories .. bt even if sad one i oso donch mind .. i mishh u, joel .. cn u hear me ? cn u feel it ?

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